Persistent pain: look deeper than before
Since I just got through a painful couple of weeks, I thought this would be an excellent topic to write about: When you have persistent pain, it is there to learn from rather than to harass you. That is the body’s wisdom. You would probably be too busy to notice that there’s an issue going on in you that needs attention so the body comes along to attract care for it. This time, I had a gallbladder infection* that wouldn’t go away. It usually does with some help from extra vitamins, tea and tampons dipped in yoghurt. However, this time around, it stayed for three long weeks and it weakened and tired me, up to the point that I decided to take antibiotics for the first time. Here’s the story.
Am I pissed at someone or something? Yes, I was, and I tackled it, I thought. Did I not take good care of myself? Could be, since I work long hours as there are many subjects in my life I want to give attention to. Do I have to tilt my pelvis better when urinating? Maybe it is one of those many post-menopausal issues. Questions kept coming, and I could answer them all. The puzzle remained incomplete, and it drove me nuts. Since I’m highly sensitive, also physically, the reactions to the antibiotics were far from desirable. It didn’t numb the pain, which worried me. What now?
Since I teach what I practice, I’ve done countless LightSteps® on it. It’s one of the methods I teach. It’s easy, and at the same time, it isn’t. I had to be taken care of, took naps in the daytime and nighttime. The weather was great, and here I was, feeling awful and wondering what the heck was going on. What was the pain telling me? Didn’t I give all the answers already? Did I have to start all over again, hoping something new would come up? I decided to stop looking and start to be there and trust that the answer would be revealed. I gave up the courage on and off. The pain was almost yelling at me, and I still didn’t hear the answer, as if my fearful thoughts made the noise of a waterfall!
There were decisions to be made and so I made them. There were some items to straighten with people, so I straightened them. Since I was bored to death, I did some small sewing jobs, which made me feel better, since they had been waiting for me for a long time. It made me feel better. What else? I cancelled some appointments and even texted some people to tell them I would not be available for a while to give this process the time it needed. The pain lessened in an instant. Since then, I’ve stumbled into some notes from about four years ago and started to take in the information. They confirmed the decisions that I had made and I realized my own part in it. I do follow up my own decisions, however, I still judged some of them a little. It seemed a small, but essential detail: the pain diminished even more. Hurray!
Listen carefully. The smallest things you skip can easily knock you down and force you to listen. Listen correctly; it will repeat itself until you hear what it says. We need overview and insight. Both serve one another. Be FIT, be Fully in Tune.
Keep it simple,
*I am definitely not a doctor. Please go to your doctor for whatever physical discomfort, illness of whatever kind of help you think you need. This is MY way to deal with it, which I share, just because of this blog post.