The ‘Circles of Trust’ are important for inner freedom
The ‘Circles of Trust’
What do you think I mean by ‘The ‘Circles of Trust are important for inner freedom’? I realise more and more that it’s such an important work to free yourself up from the negativity inside of you. You need trust for this, trust in all layers, in all colours of the wind, in all colours of the light and the rainbow. You need it badly, and it is necessary to free yourself up from repetitive patterns.
I haven’t felt welcome for a lot of years. I withdrew from situations, was physically there and not with my attention. It seemed to be the only way I could be in this world, full of masks, people who would tell me part of the truth or none of it at all. The world was in my opinion already so screwed up when I was young, that I felt ashamed being a human being. What was there to be proud of? What the heck had I come for once more? Welcome? No, I felt that wherever I went, unsafety ruled my reality. There was no way I was going to make contact with this ugly world.
To be able to understand ‘the circles of trust’, we can use the rainbow colours or the colours of the light. They’re both the same. They even correspond with the colours of our chakra’s. (Chakra means ‘wheel’ or ‘circle’). Red is the colour of passion, however also of rage, turmoil and war. Orange is a colour of creativity, party and abundance. It can be a supportive colour when you are having feelings of depression. Wear an orange shirt and look at orange items. Yellow represents energy and sunshine. Nevertheless, it also represents the other side of those qualities: hate. Green stands for freshness, hope and peace. To me, it reminds me of ‘natural’. There is a lot of green in nature. Blue is a healing colour. Cool blue; sky blue. It calms me down. Take a look at the lies you keep telling yourself. Indigo is a colour that is close to blue and violet. It deals with insides and illusions won’t bring you any further. Violet deals with cosmic energy, spirituality. It would be best to let go of the attachment of whatever you have been holding on to.
On the one hand
On the one hand, you have to deal with survival, pleasure, willpower, love, truth, insights and spirituality. Otherwise, you have to deal with fear, guilt, shame, grief, lies, illusion and attachment. I feel welcome, and yet sometimes I still feel circumstances resonate with my past. Recently I started to hear myself say things, which I did not feel, I did not think, and I wasn’t acting as if it was true. It did relief me though to say it. “I am afraid I am going to be used as a trashcan: Just throw in it whatever you want to get rid of, and I’ll take it. It will go better with you, and I’ll be left out.” Deep down inside I knew it wasn’t total nonsense: I have been born with a deep feeling of distrust. I need to look it into the eyes and investigate this chapter in all ways I can think of. It didn’t come up just like that. It has a purpose: To point me out what hasn’t been healed yet.
On the other hand
On the other hand, I didn’t believe it still was an issue. I thought I worked it all out and had grown over it. I feel it so vaguely that at first, I thought it could be a mistake. Now that I pay attention to it, I do feel this thin layer in me. It is keeping me imprisoned in a certain way. I want to feel free inside of me. Among other things, I started to believe it will help me feel more positive and energetic in general. It’s the most hidden, thin, invisible, hardly tangible layer since I was born with it. It’s been there all along. Wherever I ‘look’, it’s there. Whatever I ‘think’, it’s there as well. I haven’t embraced it yet totally. However, I do see, by diving into this chapter; I bump into thoughts, behaviour and more that I wasn’t aware of that it had such an influence on me. Let’s heal this layer. I can’t skip one bit of this chapter. I need to trust this in all circles, in all colours, since it is important for me to reach this inner freedom.
Whatever comes up in your life, give it a chance to tell you what it is pointing out to you. Look at it as wisdom and trust are helping you out deeper and deeper. The more you let it be as it appears, the closer you will be able to listen to it.
Keep it simple.